||[Dec. 13th, 2005|01:35 am]
I've never known anyone who has been murdered. In fact I could probably count on two hands all the people in my life that are "no longer with us". Anyone in the Tampa Bay area who watched the TV listened to the radio or read the paper today I'm sure heard about the events which took place at the 4th Street location of Durango Steake House early Monday morning. Steven Holmes was murdered durring a robbery. While I did not know him well, and probably exchanged a little more than a few brief lines with him, we were aquainted through my Durango while he was doing his mangers training. |
I don't know how I feel right now. As usual I am somewhat unaffected by the passing of another human being. I don't know why but I've never been deeply distraught when it comes to death or "tragedies". What disturbs me is the hate and violence which can be harbored in and executed by the human body. What sickens me even more, knowing that this was s robbery and the time over year that it is I know that this crime was probably commited by someone who is not typically I "bad person". THe man or men who comitted this crime were probably driving by our disgusting display of American greed and hubris that we call "Christmas" a time when nothing is more sacred than the dollar and a time of year when those who are without are left feeling worthless, deprivived, or sub-human because they cannot participate in the Capitilist Holiday of Christmas. May I'm wrong though. Maybe it's easier to think of him as a demon with red eyes and horns, a long wirey til spiked at the end, someone no t liek mor eor you. An addict- just trying to ge this next fix. Someone cold. Something cold. Remember he's not like us.
My prayers go out to Stevens family. I hope that his baby girl might have some chance of knowing a normal life. My prayers also lay in my fears- that could have been me, that could have been Josh, Jill, Nan, Rick, Marcus, Stan, Ellen, Dawn, Steve, Sandy...shit the list goes on...Is it wrong in this case to be thanking God that it wasn't one of us?
I pray most of all that Justice will be done.